Sebenarnya.

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Yeah!  you b****!

Sebenarnya aku dah muak.
Muak dengan desakan kau.
Merayu.
Memohon.
Meminta.
Melutut,
Kat aku.
Minta kau diterima semula.

Sebenarnya aku dah bosan.
Bosan dengan kau,
Yang tak habis- habis hubungi aku.
Aku faham, memang kau ni jenis tak reti putus asa.
Tapi, maaf sekali lagi,
Hati aku telah tertutup rapat
Untuk terima kau.
Tiada faedah,
Hutang,
Ansuran,
Gadaian,
Dan semacam lagilah.

Sebenarnya aku dah cukup puas.
Puas menonton sandiwara kau.
Puas mendengar kata- kata manis kau.
Puas telan janji palsu kau.
Sampai muntah darah putih.
Ibarat Mahsuri.
Ha, itu hanya mitos.

Sebenarnya aku pelik.
Pelik dengan sikap kau.
Gigih tak bertempat.
Gigih nakkan aku balik.
Untuk apa?
Dah tak guna. 
Tak usahlah.
Nak aku fahamkan kau pakai bahasa apa?
Cina?
Tamil?
Vietnam?
Bangladesh?
Nepal?

Sebenarnya hanya satu suara hatiku.
Tolong, tolong.
Jangan ganggu aku.
Jauhi aku.
Jangan tawan cinta aku lagi.
Jangan harapkan aku lagi.
Aku tak ingin.
Sungguh!

Harus bagaimana lagi?
Aku tak berminat.



::ahlan::
_CucuBeghaim : *

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